as an almost twenty-one year old, there’s one colossal question that i’m asked without fail by anyone i’ve just been introduced to, or by people from my hometown who are curious as to what my expensive education at obu is going to produce: what are you going to do after graduation? and to be honest, i want to change my answer depending on what day it is and what direction my heart is being yanked to at any given point in time. there’s no way i can put it all into one nice, simple sentence! because it isn’t the shortage of ambition that scares me the most about my future after snatching that diploma; it’s the fact that there are so many things i want to do and be and achieve, and the fear that there’s no earthly way i can do it all.
i want to work at my church in some capacity. i want to teach english overseas as a platform for sharing the love of Christ. i want to serve with the north american mission board and infiltrate the darkest burroughs and street corners of our own nation. i want to work with refugees and immigrants to the united states, helping them adjust to life in america and to cope with our lifeboat mentality toward them. i want to teach english to speakers of other languages in american civic centers, and tutor candidates for citizenship so that their exam isn’t such a terrifying task. i want to be a writer. i want to publish a cookbook. i want to work with victims of human trafficking and establish homes that protect and prevent girls from being taken into the trade. i want to meet the love of my life, seal the deal, and have some babies. i want to be a missions mobilizer and take passionate, short-term teams overseas. i want to lead small groups and mentor college students. i want to serve the persecuted church and share their stories with the Body. i want the goal of my life to not be arriving at death safely.
surely i can squeeze that all in during the next 60 years, right? :) whatever doors He thrusts open for me, i want to enter through them with a clear vision of His goals and with a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. i sometimes have to remind myself that not knowing exactly which experiences He’s outlined for me and in what order is exciting.
anything can happen, y’all.